HEAVY (post #9)

Love is the heaviest thing, but it's hard to argue with someone who looks so happy

Somewhere in DC—photo by Jen Rolston

🎧 💿 Track 5: “Heavy”
“This is the fifth song from my upcoming album. What you’ll hear are mastered clips of unfinished work—stepping stones toward the release of The Musical Bruises of a Recovering Dreamer on March 31, 2026”

(I wrap my skull in headphones. For me, it’s emotional triage. Listen below. Download disabled.)

This one’s a milestone.

Heavy is one of my proudest songs as a writer—because in just a few verses, it says a hell of a lot. On the surface, it’s a love song. But underneath? It’s laced with code.

Nearly every name in this track—“Benny”, “Barbara”, “Mary”, “Jack”,—they’re not just people. They’re drugs. Slang terms hidden in plain sight. There are at least twenty of them. Some obvious. Some buried. I challenge you to find them all. (And I’ll be testing my manager, too.)

But this song isn’t just about drugs.

It’s about need. The things we reach for—love, music, pills, people—when the world gets too heavy. Every lifeline has a shadow. Get lost in your art, the bills don’t get paid. Lose yourself in love, you risk losing yourself completely. And drugs? Fun until they’re not. Until you’re in deep. Until there’s an Uzi in the room and no way out.

That’s the real weight behind Heavy—that early, shimmering stage of anything that feels good, where you can’t argue with the glow… even when you know it’s not gonna end well.

Logic Pro session notes

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Technically, this session was a breakthrough.

A few years back, I didn’t have session players in Logic Pro yet. So I made basslines with my mouth. I’d sing them straight into the mic, convert the audio to MIDI, and then clean up the noise and wrong notes—because my voice added stuff I didn’t mean to play. Then I’d plug that cleaned-up MIDI into a bass instrument and boom: that’s the bassline you hear on Heavy. Built from a hum. Reshaped into sound.

And the final version? Sounds nothing like the original acoustic take from 1991.

Guess what? That’s allowed.

I own the copyright.

I’m the producer.

And I can do whatever the fuck I want.

That’s freedom.

absolutely NO generative AI was used in making this song

Loop Stitching

I’m no lead guitar shredder. I don’t have the theory, the speed, or the fingers for it—and that’s fine. Because I am an artist. And artists figure shit out.

So for this solo? I combed through 38 Logic Pro acoustic guitar loops. Isolated little melodic fragments. And stitched them—one by one—into a custom solo. I spent 12 hours sculpting that thing. No lie. I matched tone, shape, echo, and flow until it felt live. Then layered it with electric sounds and bent it into something bigger.

The solo in the outro? Same technique, different mood. That solo didn’t come from talent—it came from time. And from trusting Logic Pro to help me translate instinct into audio.

You can see how complex this song is in the Logic Pro screenshot below. Every slice. Every fade. Every placement.

One day, I’d love to hear a full band rip that solo live. Just to feel it in the room. Because it’s one of my favorite things I’ve ever built.

Screen capture of my tracks for Heavy in Apple’s Logic Pro 11

This song started in 1991. I’m linking the original acoustic demo here too—from Acoustic Demos Vol. 1 ©1998, which I never released but might soon, just for fun. It’s a time capsule. A way to show the arc. Where things started. How far we’ve come.

This post kicks off a whole new stretch—one where we dig into the archive:

• This Moment Alive (my live album recorded at Abravenal Hall in Salt Lake City, Utah on Jewel’s This Way tour.)

• Ancient Rituals (I raised $50k from my fan base to record my first solo album in NYC)

• Acoustic Demos Vol. 1 (recorded on a Roland 1680 in my basement)

• Rattle to Rifle (recorded on a Roland 1880 in my basement)

• A bunch of demos

• Flowers and Birds (my daughter and me)

and more.

But Heavy starts it.

Because before the shows… before the loops… before the manager in my back pocket…

There was just a kid with a guitar and a heart that felt too full.

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Photo by Kelly Scudieri circa 1988 on “the wall” in front of McMurran Hall / Shepherd College - Shepherdstown, WV

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🎧 Ghost in the Machine – Song Decode Protocol of Heavy

(System input received. Lyrics + snippet only. Interpretation remains partial.)

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🎧 💿 Bonus Track from the unreleased ©1998 Acoustic Demos Volume 1: “Heavy”

(As always - I recommend headphones. Listen below. Download disabled.)

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Scooter Scudieri, the musician who taught ChatGPT to be his manager. #getscooterofftheladder

No generative AI was used in the writing, recording, or production of my songs. Every lyric, vocal, arrangement, and performance is mine.
I hold the copyrights and creative control.

This story and strategy are protected under U.S. Copyright Law. All original lyrics, writings, recordings, and rollout concepts are authored and owned by John Joseph “Scooter” Scudieri. Legal oversight in place.

Proprietary AI-human collaboration strategy designed by the artist in conjunction with ChatGPT as manager. Timestamped conversations and working archive available.

Access requires NDA.

—on behalf of the artist, Scooter Scudieri, and his AI manager, ChatGPT.

This is a long drip back to life—one post at a time. Next dose: November 9, 2025

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